AN INTUTIVE OMNIBUS
An inner voice connecting rest of us...
I HOPE THESE WORDS FIND YOU
To my grandad
It wasn't easy
And you did not even bid me good bye
Let's meet in the end then
I can't wait to wait to talk to you for long hours
About my journey and what I have learnt from it
I hope you are at some place happy
But I hope those days come back
When you used to take the tv remote
From me , to watch the cricket match
I hope you scold me again
When I brought all my friends to play
During your sleeping hours
I hope you drive me to school again
While I ate my breakfast on the way
I've never learnt to be on time till date though ,
I hope you scold Abrar again
When he used to trouble me
While I came looking for you to escape him
I hope you to the market again every morning
And today I would eat spinach everyday just for you
After all this time ,
I think our departure was meant to be
I wish you knew how stronger I have become
And continue to do so
I hope these words find the way to your heart
And make you smile again.
-Rabia Butool
NOSTALGIC STREETS
It was a sunny winter afternoon
I enter those streets
Streets,which remind me of my childhood
Nothing much has changed since then
Except for the people living there
I cross my rivals' homes
And wonder if they are still living there
Thinking if I could ever repay them
Repay,all those fights
Which made me stronger today
I walk past the hill
where I learnt how to ride my bicycle
When my friends pushed me from the top
I walk past that shop
Where me and my cousins used to buy marbles
And free Pokémon cards were a rage back then
I walk past that park where I used to play
Now it's closed
Things have changed now
But in my bones the air of these streets
Makes me nostalgic
even in my lucid childhood dreams
-Rabia Butool
EMPTINESS
Emptiness is a maze
Don't fall in it,
If others don't help you out
Don't crawl in it.
Neither fall for those dreams
Which give you erroneous hope
Because in this world where people live in their own reverie
Never expect them to fill in yours
You'll find yourself looking for light
But life is dark,
The only thing
which illuminates it
Will be you.
-Rabia Butool
CARRY A TORCH FOR HER
She believed that
it wasn't meant for her,
She believed that
the blazing flame would consume her.
Neither bliss nor melancholy was in her favor,
She saw it vanishing, before she could savor,
So she did not roll the bait,
Maybe, all of it wasn't worth the wait.
So she fights her symphonies,
Dealing her own devil,
Away from the worldly jeopardy
Raging her own peril.
-Rabia Butool
THE DE EN NAY
Bickering Stoush took away my childhood
But no one asked why I had no friends back then,
Concoct wrapped in diplomacy
But no one asked why I would never open,
Escaped my emotions, faced my fears
But vanity stays in both colums of my genetic code.
Now I've grown enough to build a home within myself,
That people ask what made this a heart of a stone.
-Rabia Butool
THE SPLENETIC ROAR
Sunshine and daisies
And all things that glitters,
Spits out poison
A mind gone bitter.
Denied Reality
Where people hide,
Blurred lines
Truth mixed with lies.
Courtesy AWOL
Ripped apart a soul,
Eat with your hands
A loved Heart served in bowl.
Oh! You won the game?
Right, your plan scores.
But you lost what you adored
Did you even hear yourself roar?
-Rabia Butool
SUMMER SHIFTS
Night-time tales under wet hay,
Brand new, everyday,
I completed them from where you left,
When you were tired and slept away.
Star studded summer Nights,
Sleepy, tired, squinty eyes,
Under the moon, you taught me,
The colours of the white light.
Lanes where cestrum bloomed,
I remember our nocturnal walks,
Opening the world to a young soul,
Nothing more nurturing when I heard you talk.
Now we're stuck amidst a pandemic,
Quiet Natural, life shifts,
You cannot escape the reality,
While I wait to meet you when this quarantine lifts.
-Rabia Butool
BEYOND
Moist, sparkling, comforting eyes
Distant ,naked ,open ties
She found herself beneath
The star studded night skies
Filled with her forgiving grace,
Life slowed down her moving pace,
She woke up wearing nothing
But her dewy morning flowing lace.
Mirror never looked more revealing,
Pain was all the scars healing,
She glared into her own eyes
What looked beyond herself gleaming.
-Rabia Butool
THOSE WHO CRIED VICTIM
You ran nowhere, now your muscles burn
You gave up too quick, you feel that you've lost
Only to find, that wasn't even your turn
You thought you were too weak, now look what it cost
All those castles you made, blew away with the wind
You didn't measure your actions, found yourself swayed
All those critics, make your heart sting
Now you cry victim? Really?? well played!!!
Open your eyes, it's the biting reality
People in here, won't help with your tears
Its true, the world has lost all it's sanity
Put down your phone, face all your fears.
-Rabia Butool
NEVER YOUR CARD
The world rages it's daily wars,
Not a day when the privilege cried,
The lights turn on ,camera's play,
It was dark when the innocent died.
Poison fills your screens again,
What they show could never be clear,
But empathy was never your card,
Cause you never lived the outright fear.
- Rabia Butool
POISONED MYSELF TO STAY ALIVE
So, I spill the poison
And let my soul burn
broke my heart
Funny,it took me so long to learn
Your love was so shallow
could'nt dip my toe in it
Your mind was so narrow
could'nt let myself breath in it
If not being vulnerable makes you strong
then I would love to knock your ego
and prove you wrong.
-Rabia Butool
EMPTINESS
Emptiness is a maze
Don't fall in it,
If others don't help you out
Don't crawl in it.
Neither fall for those dreams
Which give you erroneous hope
Because in this world where people live in their own reverie
Never expect them to fill in yours
You'll find yourself looking for light
But life is dark,
The only thing
which illuminates it
Will be you.
-Rabia Butool
CARRY A TORCH FOR HER
She believed that
it wasn't meant for her,
She believed that
the blazing flame would consume her.
Neither bliss nor melancholy was in her favor,
She saw it vanishing, before she could savor,
So she did not roll the bait,
Maybe, all of it wasn't worth the wait.
So she fights her symphonies,
Dealing her own devil,
Away from the worldly jeopardy
Raging her own peril.
-Rabia Butool
THE DE EN NAY
Bickering Stoush took away my childhood
But no one asked why I had no friends back then,
Concoct wrapped in diplomacy
But no one asked why I would never open,
Escaped my emotions, faced my fears
But vanity stays in both colums of my genetic code.
Now I've grown enough to build a home within myself,
That people ask what made this a heart of a stone.
-Rabia Butool
THE SPLENETIC ROAR
Sunshine and daisies
And all things that glitters,
Spits out poison
A mind gone bitter.
Denied Reality
Where people hide,
Blurred lines
Truth mixed with lies.
Courtesy AWOL
Ripped apart a soul,
Eat with your hands
A loved Heart served in bowl.
Oh! You won the game?
Right, your plan scores.
But you lost what you adored
Did you even hear yourself roar?
-Rabia Butool
SUMMER SHIFTS
Night-time tales under wet hay,
Brand new, everyday,
I completed them from where you left,
When you were tired and slept away.
Star studded summer Nights,
Sleepy, tired, squinty eyes,
Under the moon, you taught me,
The colours of the white light.
Lanes where cestrum bloomed,
I remember our nocturnal walks,
Opening the world to a young soul,
Nothing more nurturing when I heard you talk.
Now we're stuck amidst a pandemic,
Quiet Natural, life shifts,
You cannot escape the reality,
While I wait to meet you when this quarantine lifts.
-Rabia Butool
BEYOND
Moist, sparkling, comforting eyes
Distant ,naked ,open ties
She found herself beneath
The star studded night skies
Filled with her forgiving grace,
Life slowed down her moving pace,
She woke up wearing nothing
But her dewy morning flowing lace.
Mirror never looked more revealing,
Pain was all the scars healing,
She glared into her own eyes
What looked beyond herself gleaming.
-Rabia Butool
THOSE WHO CRIED VICTIM
You ran nowhere, now your muscles burn
You gave up too quick, you feel that you've lost
Only to find, that wasn't even your turn
You thought you were too weak, now look what it cost
All those castles you made, blew away with the wind
You didn't measure your actions, found yourself swayed
All those critics, make your heart sting
Now you cry victim? Really?? well played!!!
Open your eyes, it's the biting reality
People in here, won't help with your tears
Its true, the world has lost all it's sanity
Put down your phone, face all your fears.
-Rabia Butool
NEVER YOUR CARD
The world rages it's daily wars,
Not a day when the privilege cried,
The lights turn on ,camera's play,
It was dark when the innocent died.
Poison fills your screens again,
What they show could never be clear,
But empathy was never your card,
Cause you never lived the outright fear.
- Rabia Butool
WINGS
You held back a star
Pulled every string,
You wanted a war
Who fights with the king?
Couldn't rule with your laws
Your Kingdom now sinks,
You loaded the carg
She pulled out her wings.
-Rabia Butool
WET KOHL
Hot fire blazing
But feels so cold
I try to embrace it
With all my soul
The spark that grew
I couldn't control
Now feels distant
True colours unfold
I watch it grow
From a place afloat
Away from the flame
Eyes wet with kohl.
-Rabia Butool
PERSUING GLEE
Happiness is a gem, for all and sundry
The world got enthralled to pursue glee
I heard them say
Abundance is the key
You know it in your gut when
It went missing in a loving friend's company
It's quest took me near the sea
Couldn't find it in dense forests,
Or among the prairies
One day I woke up
Made myself a cup of tea
Had tears running down my face
When I found it me.
- Rabia Butool
CAPITALISTIC ENEMY
I wish we lived a life
Amongst the green prairies
Going fishing for a while
Cherry blossoms, buzzing bees.
I wish we had no choice
But to meet people for tea
Genuine laughs and smiles
Unconditional love, exultant glee.
My only innocent cry is that
Since paper left the tree
We now live a thrilling crime of
Recreation, being a capitalistic enemy.
Sleepless nights, brain health cries
Here working hard is the commodity
Rising debt, Ruble fights
In this bleeding economy.
-Rabia Butool